Ain't No Chains

Sticks and stones will break my bones
But names will never hurt me
I drummed it in my head every day
But the pain resurfaced
Tried my hardest for acceptance
But my heart was cut by remarks
That scarred me with rejection
Obsession of my reflection had me
Trying to mirror others
Anger in my stomach had me fightin over nothing
I was only 9 when Darren got snatched from the park
Stories of abuse
Astra’s hittin corners fast crashin of cars
Silent cries of my soul
My emotions were in a tug of war
Defined by my closed mind under hypnosis
When I looked at porn
Findin' comfort in the naked flesh
Fed my hunger for sex
Tryna run instead of takin baby steps
Wrapped in lust disgusted with my conquest
Me and my boys would discuss chicks
And act like its a contest
But I would end up losing myself in the process
So God took control and showed me
What the definition of hope is
Life was ice frozen feelin' cold
It’s hard to find the highs
When all you see are lows
My knuckles bruised from punchin the wall
Had a battle with myself I was losin the war
But now I’m free not feedin the fear
And I’m seein' it clear
And there’s a reason I’m here
No more chains on me no more chains
I’m dyin to my past I’m puttin fire to the mask
No more chains on me no more chains
I’ll rise up from the ashes
Put the iron in the casket
No more chains no more chains (2X)
Standin in the son
Turning shadows in the daylight
No more chains on me no more chains
Ain’t no chains on me no no no
Time’s precious
Dad would write me in his letters sayin
Cherish every minute every moment every second
Pictures paint a thousand words
Sat listenin to photographs
Holdin back tears
Hatin how it hurts
Findin father figures in people I call my friends
Tryin hard to fit in defeated caught in the trench
We’re lyin on the inside everybody hurts
Pretending that it doesn’t
Just makes everybody worse
Everybody worse
Caught in a web confused
All these thoughts in my head
Bein taught to be a man
From all this porno and sex yo
One night stands to a 3 year relationship
3 year relationships to one night stands
Searchin for the major high 17 I lace the pipe
Lonely after sex
If you want girl you can stay the night
Nothin but a faded sign claiming its illumination
Now I’ve got my ray of light stating
I’m a new creation
Life was ice frozen feelin cold
It’s hard to find the highs
When all you see are lows
All you see are lows
My knuckles bruised from punchin the wall
Had a battle with myself I was losin the war
But now I’m free not feedin the fear
And I’m seein it clear
And there’s a reason I’m here