What If

What if
What if I never tried weed
What if Dean crashed when he was
Drunk driving at high speed
Would I have died who knows
Mum layin flowers by my tomb stone askin
God why me why me
Why due take my son
As she cries a mess
Been stabbed 3 times
Others have died for less
Never been so thankful for the air that I breathe
Can’t help but think what if
I died where would I be
Where where
Would I be rottin in the pit of hell
What if they never diagnosed
Sola with sickle cell
What if my dad never chose the bottle over us
Got a real job held it down and sobered up
What if I never moved a fake gun
And 8ths of weed
When cops kick the door down
Watched the flat and raided me
Livin with the pain of what
I did and didn’t do
Let my life be the lesson that I give to you
Imagine nothing had changed
I stayed the same
Never made the choice I happened to make
Can’t explain I’m amazed
What if my dad never left my mother
Would I been a kid more
Disciplined growing different
With sisters and bigger brothers
What if I turned down my first chance to get high
Used drugs for my excuse for me to get by
What if I never got expelled from my first school
Smoked weed though my exams
And kept my curfew
What if I listened in class
Or admitted that I didn’t understand
Swallowed my pride and raised my hand
What if I never moved down south
Ignorin every bit of guidance
Until the message drowned out
What if I never went church
On that day I got saved
Then reversed then went straight back to old ways
What if I never aborted my first child
Married her instead of the wife I have now
I wouldn’t have my two children
With my current wife I’d be with her
And a 9 year old in some other life
Imagine nothing had changed
I stayed the same
Never made the choice
I happened to make
Can’t explain I’m amazed
Got me thinkin what if what if what if
Got me thinkin what if what if what if
Got me thinking what if
I’ve had a look at my past
And I don’t wanna go back
But still I’m thinkin
Got me thinkin what if what if what if
Got me thinkin what if what if what if
Got me thinking what if
I’ve had a look at my past and I don’t wanna go back
But still I’m thinkin what if
What if oh what if
Got me thinkin what if
Oh no
Got me thinkin what if
Got me thinkin what if